i wish i could be a love machine
instead i am just a mere human
puttering away at life
full of fear and anxiety
hoping against hope to make it out alive
in this great pandemic
if i was a love machine
than maybe i would write better god damn poetry
maybe i would actually write instead of being paralyzed
but you know what
i am a god damn love machine incased in a human body
my heart beats to love and to grow
my heart beats so I can cry and laugh
and my heart bests so i can write these words of love
Beloved, I am weak and wary.
I want to run away from my existence,
Your love seems so far away.
Then like a warm blanket,
Your presence folds around me,
holding me still till I find find center
trusting in Your love,
even when I want to run away.
help me to run towards,
to be held in Your warmth.
I want to just give up,
yet You call me to love.
Love folds into me like waves of the sea.
Your love is like the ocean,
fathomless and deep.
I want to be a devoted lover of Your depths,
like Jacque Cousteau, diving deeper in the
Ocean of Your love.
I shed dead weights that drag me down,
and find life giving air and freedom in
being loved and loving You.
I yearn to trust You,
but I am afraid.
May Your love
I know I haven’t been faithful,
I am easily distracted by earthly clamors.
I am trying to follow Your will and Your way, the Way of Love.
But I am too dense, and sometimes I don’t understand.
Please make Your way clear for me,
and keep it simple. I need You to say
“Hey kid, wrong way, this way!” Thanks.
Your Beloved Child.
Doubt pulls me down into murky waters, and I feel myself struggling. I struggle to trust, I struggle to love, and I struggle to find the strength to keep going. Please help ignite the fire within, so I may rise above. May Your sustain me as I swim ashore to find solid footing.
Images come and go,
but your warmth next to me
is more than a dream.