Poem: pandemic blues

i know i am not the only one that feels this way,
but i am done with this pandemic.
i am done being surrounded by death,
i am done being surrounded by loss.

grief is so thick in the air,
and part of me wants to run away.
i want to run into something, anything that
is better than the reality of this pain.

and yet i remain, my practices have taught me
to breathe and sit with my pain.
i settle into my meditation cushion,
and i rage at the
loss of friendships,
loss of jobs, and
loss of possibilities yet to be.

my heart aches and yearns for a reality that
is only in my mind.

i sit with my suffering.

i sit with the loss and
accept that death is part of life,
and yet i rage inside and say
“this shit ain’t normal.”

But what can i do?
i am just a laid off chaplain seeking
purpose.

i got the pandemic blues.
But shit, i ain’t hopeless.
i will bear my suffering,
and walk through it
like a fearless boddhisattva
to embrace life and death
as one.

Supporting Care Dementia Givers

I wanted to stray from my usual posts and share resources especially to those caring for someone with Dementia. Here is a link to Teepa Snow, expert in dementia care, on managing dementia care int he time of covid-19:

Teepa Snow: Managing Dementia Care in the Time of COVID-19

I am a chaplain by profession and also was running the operations of a dementia care area in a retirement community, so please let me know how I can support you at this difficult time. I am happy to share more resources.