Doubt pulls me down into murky waters, and I feel myself struggling. I struggle to trust, I struggle to love, and I struggle to find the strength to keep going. Please help ignite the fire within, so I may rise above. May Your sustain me as I swim ashore to find solid footing.
I created another site for creating art in order to keep me sane and away from the hell of fear, depression, self-hate and apathy.
I am definitely running out of steam, but grateful for the practice of sitting. I sat today in the morning. I feel like I am coming out of a minor depressive period. Grateful I am more aware than I used to be, and caring for myself with more patience and love. I’ve also been practicing metta when I drive, starting with loving-kindess for myself and the other drivers around me. 🙂
Meditation Poem #77
deep compassions rises
out of my heart
love for all beings
It’s been difficult to get out of bed in the mornings, I think I am going through some low depressive periods. I am grateful I can be aware, and choose self care when my brain tells me the opposite.
Meditation Poem #75
the greatest gift
is being open
to the present