Why are you so far and yet so near?
It’s in the moments of grief that I cry out to you,
and moments of joy I forget about you.
Thank you for the gifts of joy and sorrow,
because both are great teachers.
May I accept life in all of it’s fullness.
Where have you been?
Oh, you were with me all along.
Sometimes You are so close that
I cannot see you.
Beloved, I am weak and wary.
I want to run away from my existence,
Your love seems so far away.
Then like a warm blanket,
Your presence folds around me,
holding me still till I find find center
Passions burns out,
but Your love is an
Love folds into me like waves of the sea.
Your love is like the ocean,
fathomless and deep.
I want to be a devoted lover of Your depths,
like Jacque Cousteau, diving deeper in the
Ocean of Your love.
I shed dead weights that drag me down,
and find life giving air and freedom in
being loved and loving You.
I yearn to trust You,
but I am afraid.
May Your love
I know I haven’t been faithful,
I am easily distracted by earthly clamors.
I am trying to follow Your will and Your way, the Way of Love.
But I am too dense, and sometimes I don’t understand.
Please make Your way clear for me,
and keep it simple. I need You to say
“Hey kid, wrong way, this way!” Thanks.
Your Beloved Child.